I HATE MY LIFESTYLE NAO ! D':
TOTALLY SHAG ,
ie miss th old time i had w/ my friends ,
ie miss my SLEEPING'TIME , cfm quaranteeCHOP 8HRS A DAY ,
not 8 , BUT ATLEAST A 6/7 . D':
ie miss my relaxing time ,
i dun even tink tt ie had a LEISURE time nowadays ,
qot home , nvr even bathe / eat ,
jitao on laptop started doinq hw & npcc'stuffs ,
sigh , i had enough of this ,
from jan onwards , my schedule is ALWAYS the same ,
EVERY SINGLE DAY , EVERY SINGLE MIN , EVERY SINGLE SEC ,
ppl will just ask me , had ue send th schedule ?
had ue updated th blog ?
ie hab'nt HAD any time to update mine ,
ie nvr even had time to qo out w/ my fwens ,
sometimes , ie mit-ed a day for dem ,
in e end had to cancel , ._.'
ie reach home ard 6 EVERYTIME ,
during jan , at least , 2 of th DAYS in weekdays ie can home early ,
NAO ? ie nid stay untill qi wan ba wan , wtf ,
is this th lifestyle that im gonna stay untill my N's over ?
O's is TT IMPT , so DOES N's .
we N's student oso tking major exams too right ?
whye aint your treatinq us lyk one ,
mayb not 'us' , but 'me' ,
this kind of life , ie qonna suffocate soon & die ,
ie rather die & qet away frm all this ,
ie wanna spend my time studyinq ,
everyday in school ,
i'll just keep reminding , ' later get home , mus study this & that '
when ie qet home , ppl start sendinq me schedules & etc ,
& ie no time to study at all ,
& IE OSO DAM SCARED OF LIEING ON MY BED NOWADAYS ,
coz , if ie LIE w/ more than 5mins , you' can find me sleeping alrdy ,
can ue see hw tired am i ?
WHEN IE GET NOTHING OUT OF IT .
thats th MOST CHICKENBACKSIDE thing ie ever GET ,
sometimes , i ever wonder ,
one's lifestyle , issit all're sufferings ?
whye couldn't one's suffer now , & happy ltr ?
& whye MUST there be another one's standing dere doing nth & qet all th credits & wadever ,
while th one's tt are suffering for most of th time qet nth but scoldings ?
ie got alot of ques in my head ,
ie wanna ask , but whenever ie ask any one' of dem ,
dey would just sae, im asking a stupid ques ,
being curious = stupid ? sigh .
ie dun feel lyk quarrelinq in class w/ you , but is you come provoke me firsth ,
ue tink ie happy when quarreling ar ? ie dam stress alrdy can ,
im like , crying in my heart every moment during midnight when no one noes ,
your think being a 'M' is easy ? come try .
not easy as you tink , not like counting abc , 123 ,
ie hab my dnt'coursework too ,
whenever ie dunnoe , i'll ask you ,
& whenever ie ask you th thing tt ie dunnoe, th other quy will come over & say smth tt literally provoke me ,
listen , its *LITERALLY* alright ,
& whenever ie scold back ,
your will just say ,
' oh , forqet it , let her be , she's a qhost rite , somemore ppl die-ing in 21december2012 le mah '
wtf , whenever ie hear tis , ie dunnoe whye , my heart will just pain or wadever ,
feel lyk breaking down ,
BUT , ie noe tt if i break down now ,
i'll become a weak person infront of ALL OF YOU ,
i don't want , ie rlly rlly don't want ,
your try , habing a bdate , that everybody in ur CCAS or CLASS , keep laughing ,
when its like , ur 18th'bday ?
okay , mayb , th world won't end on tt day ,
but , hu noes ?
im totally lost ,
im not hyper at all ,
ALTHO ie seems ,
i'd tried ,
ie wanna be hyper again ,
ie miss my cheerful & crazy face ,
compare mine , & lasttime ,
lasttime is much mor cheerful ie swear ,
peektures for chinggay , book'review & friday' npcc traiining ,
bye .
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