Changes.

1:11:00 PM YILIN (: 0 Comments

Hey everybody! There's too much going on in my life right now, that blogging became the least priority. I know I promised to post up my Wuhan & Phuket post, but I think this current post are much more important than those. In just last week, I've experienced one of the worst scenario that someone can experienced in life. HAHAHA, Its retrenchment. I know we shouldn't name it as "Retrenchment" when the real deal was that our project is over, but then again, at the end of the day, we're still "pulled out from project" and in my terms, is "SACKED". Hence, Retrenched seems likea more appropriate word to describe this.

So, since then, alot had changed. The dynamics in the company changes as well. In the past, all of us had goals. We had the same objectives to fulfill, the same motive to work towards it. But, slowly, all these turned into dust. I know changes are inevitable. There's nothing we can stop changes. The only thing we can do right now, is sought out for new and better opportunities. I'm really glad that after speaking and discussing with mummy, I've finally realize my goal at the end of the day. But, its just me. What about the rest? At least I'm glad to hear that, there's a few staying. Although, typing all these down will make me look fake and all, since I actually hated, er, some of them. HAHAHAHA. But, I'm not that mean. Yes, Me hating them is 1 thing, but them getting retrenched is another. I might hate them and all, but not to the extent of hoping that their career in A&A is over. I kinda still hopes that they can find a new job in this short period of time, and maybe they will become matured overtime.

Let me explain myself.

I was just a fresh graduate from poly back in March'2015. My first job was to be a Pre-school Teacher. THAT WAS MY DREAM ALL ALONG OKAY. I know my calling was teaching. I kid you not, I've been doing so much teaching since Poly. The thing thats ironic was, I'm teaching values in life, and yet, I can't seem to apply my values in this job. In the past, I've always tell the children that I taught that,

"Perseverance is the key in life. To succeed, you must persevere. I know there's tons of obstacle out there, before reaching your goal, but you must always remember that, after all these obstacles, they're bound to teach you something along the way that will help you so much in succeeding your goal at the end of the day."

But, now, its so hard to apply this in me right now in this current job. No matter how much I persevere through the obstacles I met in this job, I can't see the goal clearly anymore. And slowly, I start to shut up. I've always been a loud person. I'm always the person that will announce to the world what I like or don't like. I'm really open to telling the world how I felt. But through this job, I closed up. I didn't even realized it, until my mummy thought that something's wrong with me. HAH.

Anyways, it was really sad that I lost myself in this job. So maybe, getting retrenched might be a good thing afterall. I'm determined to find back myself before my university starts. I'll find back the loud me. You guys can say all you want.

"Fiona, did you ate speaker growing up?"

"Fiona, Please, keep your mouth shut."

"Pui Pui Dua Dua Jia, Yo Ah Yo Ah, Long Tio Pia"

These were some of the comments I remember deeply in my heart, Its not easy erasing these comments off. This job is the one job that I received so much "compliments" in just er, less than a year.

Apart from all these, I have to thank the people in this job as well. They've taught me so much about life. They've taught me that, I've to come back stronger every single time they tried to put me down. The amount of times I breakdown before sleeping, The amount of times I rant to the people around me, The amount of times I feel like giving up, The amount of times I want to resign, I'm glad I'm still here, growing stronger every single time, every single day.

"The reason why they're putting you down every single time, is because that you're a obstacle to them. So, don't let them have their way. I know you can do it, you always do it." - Anonymous.

"Words are just words, They can't hurt you physically. If you can overcome the sharpness and cruelty of words, you can overcome anything." - Anonymous.


I know all this I've encountered in this job wasn't severe, or serious. But to me, at this point in life, it was. Documenting all this down, made me realized how much I've gone through in the past year. Looking at how much I've grown, I'm actually glad that I entered this life. They had given me life lessons that's priceless, and these will help me alot, in my future.

Till then, I wish my colleagues best.