Passion....
I know i've blogged for today,BUT.
I just wanna update my blog again,
For the second time in a day.
Was watching razorTV & youtube,
and i pop onto a show called , "Burn the Floor"
Its a ballroom show, its a dance tour,
And they chanced upon in Sg last year.
And it made me reminisce.
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To be very very very honest,
I've lost the passion in dancing anymore.
Especially after joining the cca in sch.
Im not saying my cca aint good, its my stuff.
I just don't feel the passion to dance anymore.
In the past, i dance because someone wants me to.
I know that, whenever i dance, someone is watching me,
supporting me,he may not show up,
but i know he's watching me somewhere around the performing place.
Now....
Who am i dancing to?
What am i dancing for?
I've lost the aim in dancing anymore.
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Whenever i go for cca training, I always wanted it to end ,
AS QUICKLY, AS SOON, AS POSSIBLE.
But that shouldn't be the case.
THAT ISN'T RIGHT.
Normally, i would not want the lesson to end so early...
But now, when the training ends, first one to zao is me.
Sometimes, i even skipped training.
Its no doubt i've gained weight,
no doubt that i'm not performing anymore.
I would cock up lots of bullshyt excuses to stop myself from going training.
Whats wrong with me?
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I want my passion back.
Without dancing, i feels like i couldn't express myself anymore.
Dancing is the only way and time that i feel freedom,
Dancing is the only place where nobody can judge me, nobody can judge my style.
Its the place where i would be under the spotlight,
I may danced badly, but i'd still feel super happy.
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Partly, i also want my weight back.
I don't want to be so fat anymore.
Its time to slim down.
Cca starting on 25Feb?
Dance school's training starting on 23Feb.
i'm not skipping both anymore.
No matter how anybody is gg to tempt me, IM SO GOING.
IM GOING TO PULL MYSELF BACK UP.
SO WHAT THE TRAINING IS TOUGH?
I'll be able to go through it.
NPCC TRAINING IS TOUGHER,ROUGHER.
And i've been it for 5years.
So why not dancing?
When dancing is one my favorite things to do, right?
Look at my faces, When i first started Latin,
The smiles and laughs,
After skipping tons of training,
I start to put on STUPID WEIGHT.
I gained weight like crazy.
Here comes my first and last performance of year2012.
The memories i had with this bunch was so much,
SO MUCH that i don't regret knowing them.
SO MUCH that i forced myself to training, to train with them,
NO MATTER HOW TIRED and LAZY i was.
They even say , "I cab down to your house and fetch you"
They can say ridiculous things just to force me for training.
Despite all the sweats, The laughter was priceless. :)
I'm not gonna quit.
At least, I want to shed off my weight and fats.
AND MY FLABBY ARMS.
No matter how much i don't like dancing salsa, its still part of latin,
Its either i danced it well, or i don't even dance at all.
To dance, I've the confidence.
Having back my weight, I'm MUCH MORE HAPPIER. :D
<3 p="">Till then,
TOODLES :)
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