@39,
And now , If they ask me what i wanted to be ,
I'll write down , " I wan to be a baby back again , "
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YESYESYES .IM SO SORRY THAT I DIN'T BLOG FOR DAYS , WEEKS :( . People're rushing me thru fb, & in schhhhh . If i still don't wan to UPDATE my blog , might as well CLOSE IT :D .
HEHE ,Yes . I've been spending my time wisely (Y) . In doing the things i like.
HAHAHAHAHAHAH :P , I dont study -.-' .SHYT . I NEVER REALLY DID STUDY ! :(
Next friday is the first exam.Heard that there'll be an intensive chinese lessons during curriculum time AFTER midyear ,,,,,,,,,,,,
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~
SRP, EXTENDEDSRP , STUDYGROUP .
HAS GOT THE NERVES ON ME ! V~!@#$%^&* ,
School's sucha boreedom this fewdays ...... , After speechday over , Needa stay in sch for lessons and lessons AND LESSONS AGAIN :(
LASTLY ,
The teachers thought we only have their ONE and ONLY RESPECTIVE SUBJECTS . THEY CLEARLY FORGOT THAT WE TOOK 6SUBJECTS -.- , Giving us hws during weekends like freeflow of water . If i ever stepped out of house on sat , i'll need to stay @ home on the nextday to complete all my homework.
I sound like a nerd now . Very . If all this hardwork and shytty thing would get me an L1R5 15points, i'll thankgod and strive frigging hard :P, Just allow my brain to take iin whatever i studied now :D .
Yes , I've just complete one of the compo , ' Rejection ' mindmap :D , AND I CAME OVER TO BLOG BEFORE COMPLETING IT ! GOSH . Im sucha kind & nice blogger in a way :D . HEHE , I wanna pon school tml ! CAN I CAN I CAN I ?!? , I could ! If i'd managed to complete finish doing the top part and bottom part of dnt ! :( . I hate mr--- , HE DOESN'T WANT TO CUT WOOD FOR ME! Thus, I need to try again tml -.-' . GOSH . Time's runnning out lahhhh :(
I've found quite a BUNCH of pictures from SEC1-TILL NOW ! 4years of changes . See how i've changed. Fat,Slim,Tall,Short, KEEP THOSE FUGGING COMMENTS TO YOURSELF :D.
I've been living in a happy life untill i met a few people. Itbecame rocky at first , AND NOW , IT HAD GONE HRU EROSION AND DEPOSITION THAT IT BECAMES A VALLEY&GORGE. So deep till i couldn't even see the solution. But i know , End of 2011= End of my misery .
All the pictures summarise my life in school . But i swear, My life outside WAS WAY BETTER THAN MY LIFE IN SCHOOL .
GOOODBYE:D
@38,
Nobody would want to turn on the light for me , untill i does it myself .
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1week since i last blog .
Days passed,
Times flies .
A blink of an eye , Its april .
Im just last than half a year to O's .
& Frankly speaking .
I've freaking no mood to sit down & study .
I couldn't concentrate .
I've tried all ways ,
Its to no avail .
I had enough .
I couldn't flunk .
If i want to flunk , in th first place , i should just enrolled into a higher nitec course .
And not dangling in sec5 for 4months .
If i've choosen sec5 as my right path , I shhould've studied since January .
Great , I did studied .
After seeing my results , MSG dropped tremendously .
totally lost all my morale and motivation and whatever think that're moving me these years.
' I feel lik ending my life . ' this thought had been popping in and out of mind every min&secs.
Especially during th time when i feel like cryingg .
Forcing myself to retaliate to the tears is like nearly impossible .
Sometimes i ever wonder , If i'm studying for myself or parents ?
I've become th ParadeMarker for Speechday`2011.
Kinda excited & nervous .
Been trainnning to shout commands out loud .
Nomatter how LOUD i shout , People still could not hear .
Goshh , I know i can do it . I can (Y) .
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Went out w. Zy & cliques to kite-flyinggggggggggggggggggggggggg ,
Its funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn .
I couldn't feel the happiness within me .
Nomatter how i do ,
Nomatter how crazy i am .
The hyperness,Crazyness only withhold few hours ?
After dey've gone , Im alone .
Minds' runnning thru my mind like a racing car .
Weird images popping out here and there .
I had enough,serious .
I feel lik getting out of this planet lik RIGHT AWAY, STRAIGHT AWAY ,
Can i just take my O's & Get off this f* sch .
I come back just to take my O's .
I dont deserve all this shyt you guys gave me .
Patience has its limits .
Doesn't mean that i nvr raise up my voice means that im a coward.
Get thatt ?!?
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Sigh , Speechday Rehearsal tml againzxz .
I wan a true friend , Who doesn't ?
I wan a listening ear , Who doesn't ?
I wan somebody where i can lie on,shop with , MOST IMPTLY , Is that , she could tolerate my nonsense , Is tt difficult ?
Sigh ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Maybe im just fated to be alone for th rest of my life ,
I miss the 'kiddy'me' .
The 'me' where im oblivious to the surroundings .
All i' wanted in life was , Papa,Mama,Ahgong,Ahma,Uncle&Aunties to be happy .
How naive i was , back then ..
Actually , its aint bad as well .
At least i would not have to sufffer under all this nonsense&rubbish .
Being naive at times , the feeling is great .
Wanting to suffer under the pain alone , its useless.
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Sometimes life need to have a cooldown-period .
Just to reflect what you have done before this period & how to improve and improvise a better 'you' in the next period .
@37,
I just that all guys're the same . :X
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Hadn't been blogging since LAST Saturday .
Tada- .
A-L-O-T of events went on last week .
Other than mon,tues,wed , tt totally sux .
HEEE .
I maybe a straightforward and direct person.
But who loves study ? -.-'
Out of 10, maybe 1? hehe :)
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OHYES .
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Let me blog about wenyi's bday on sat first .
its awesome with th right humans ard as usual .
Kept eattttttingggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg ,
Like nobody business .
YES , I forgot what we did .
I remembered one deeply .
I was plying dykes .
And th best thing was , Im aimming th bulleye .
AND WHEN I SHOOT ,
I aimmed at the middle of a lizzard .
iTS STRUGGLINGSUPER HARD ,
& IM SUPER SAD & GUILTY FOR TH ENTIRE NIGHT :(
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Sunday,
FLASH MOB AT NIGHT WITH CHENZHIYING :)
Superblyy fun with ALL THE COSPLAYERS we saw ,
All pics're on her phone ,
1day she nvr UPDATE , 1day no picture :(
I only have some ,
Those BEFORE i went for flashmob,
How sad :(
I had fun anyway <3
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Right , Wed ,
After srp ,
i went too training -.-'
Was kena shoootzzxz by th HUMANS OVER THERE . :(
Like heelllla' .
Met Wenxian outside sch .
Wx & Seann walked me home (Y) .
And , YES .
AFTER REACHING MY BLOCK , Some humANZXZ suggested if we wanna eat prawnnoodles .
So i drop off th idea of heading home , Yes ! I went to eat with dem -.-
We ordered alot .
Im gainning weight, fyi .
Chitchattedd untilll im kpkb-ing that MY SHOW'S STARTING :(
Thats th time where dey walked me home again . hehe ,
How nice :) .
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Thurs- ,
Fine dining ! First day of camp .
Met up with Zhiying & walk to sch tgt ,
We're superly late .
Separated when my class're gg over to a room , While they're gg over to geog rm .
Anywayzxz , I had funn at nighttt .
Sat w. Wenyi,HuangSheng,ZhiHwee & Eugene duringg the dinnnerr @Breeks .
Eat a simple meal AINT EASY AS YOU THINK ,
-.-' , Actually not for th 5 of us .
The cher teaching , We're either talking or plying handphone games .
Each other's PHONE"S . HAHAH :)
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Fridayzxz :)
FUNNNNFUNNNN(Y)
Was plying poker with th rest before setting off to NYP.
I like the nurse workshop i went to in th afternooon .
Playing as a casualTY , Waiting for ur teammates to find you ,
Its lik so awesome :P
I can't forget th face that they found me ,
YES , WE'RE TH FIRST GROUP .
& We did a wrong elevator bandage ?
Not a nice one :X
HAHAHAHA , Met up with th rest @Mac ,
Eat & HOMED .
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Saturdayzx ,
Food distribution in th morning w. ZINCOXIDE .
Met up w. herrrr before heading to NEWTON tgt :)
Ignatius'MAMA fetch us there ,
OMFG , SHE'S YOUNG -.-
I think th photos on my phone had clearly shows that we had great fun .
Especially serving food t. th old folks . LOL .
We're eatting WHILE serving :)
INVESTIGATING a household in th afternoon .
Went forr 'lil' lunch with th other peoples .
Cab down t. PlazaSing' with Her ,
We sat in th cab for AWHILE ,
& We're askeddd if We wan to drop off here ,
As gg inside th thing , need plus $1,
So yes , We played otw .
SAW H.YIXUN .
Played arcade while waiting for Q.WENYI .
:D ,
Went inside with classss .
Yes , In e end sat down with. ZINCOXIDE .
Th show was awesome .
YES , And we went off tgt tooooooo ,
Bid goodbyee , & I rushed down to sentosaaaa ,
Met w. PIG before rushhingg in .
YESH ,
Kiat teng & Agnes came out & Pei me ...
I cut th queue of Amanda' & cliques :x .
YES , The AZZURA'party were awesomee ,
BUT NOT AS AWESOME AS TH FUN WE HAD LAST NIGHT .
:D , SHHHHH .
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Alright ,
PICTURES CANNOT BE UPLOADED FOR DK WHAT FUCKING REASON :(
I shall upload it soon . :)
@36,
If i could decide my fate ,
I would choose happiness .
Who would choose sadness ?
Only a dumb will do so . :')
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March holidays starts .
March holidays ending in just 1MORE day ?
Sighhhh ....
March holidays starts , I think i spend more time @ home sleepinggg .
Sometimes, When you're rushing out your homeworks ,
You want holiday.
When you're in a holiday mood , You want to go back to school .
But when its th last day of th holiday , You want a longer break .
Humans're ironic in all ways -.-.
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Had dance pract w. Zhiying on Tues&Wed .
Funfunfunnnn (Y) .
We spent most of the time plyingg -.-' ,
And i swear ,
The people there' ARE HILARIOUS .
I can't believe thatt this sunday's the actual performance .
AND TADAA , Both of us dint went for th friday's thinggy .
SO yeappppzxz ,
But anywayzxz ,.
WE SAWW A SUPER 'SHUAI' GUY ,
That turns out to be 'Not'A'Guy' .
Sighhh ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
HE'S STANDING INFRONT OF ME SOMEMORE .
Super sad :(
The others were those caucasians & niggers ? :D
They're exceptionally awesome peoplee .
Comparing my circle of friends & them ,
I think my friends're soo INCOMPARABLE to them -.-
They' would always show out a happy face & say HI to you whenever dey saw you ,
While my friends ?
You might be a 10years bestfriend , But when both of you walk past each other ,
its worst than a stranger , -.-'
Din't even LOOK at each other .
Thats how pathetic humans can be . :D
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Thurs' tuition were awesome in a way ,
Though my beloved cindy aint there , I had fun with the rest .
They're lik the vitamins for me in tuitionn ,
Their laughters & jokes made my day ends with a smile .
Homed with. Joey (Y) .
He's also another awesome guy that i met 1year ago ,
A guy that always used ' discriminate ' this word .
HAHAHAHA , <3 .
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Was spendingggg most of my time w. A PIG beside me .
He's annoying and irritating, I also dk why i chooseeee to FIND him -.-'
Yaosieww , Must be im in my dreams EVEN in the DAY ! :@
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By using chinese characters could express my feelings even more ? even deeper ? ..
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人生短短，为什么我们还要找对方事情呢？
你不觉得你这样做会显得自己很悲哀，很小孩子气吗？
也许你不会这样觉得，不过傍观者会替你感到悲哀。。。
也许对你来说，我的痛苦就是你的幸福，
不过你有没有听过，人在做，天在看。
对，你现在很开心，不过当你长大了，也会有人有这种态度这样对你的。
到时候，我看你还敢不敢笑出来。
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我的人生好痛苦啊。
如果我能帮我的人生挂上一个句号，那么有多好啊？
不过这样年轻就要挂上一个句号，不是很浪费吗？
我不可以让白发人，送黑发人。
这样的话，虽然我的痛苦已消失掉了，不过这会带来痛苦给我身傍得人，
好矛盾。。矛盾。。。矛盾。。。。
每个大人看到我，都叫我好好的念书，
好好的念书真的有用吗?
如果真的有用的话，那么为什么那些拥有文品的都找不到工作呢？
而是那些没有那么高的学历拥有很好的工作。
这样一来，那些大人不是自打大嘴巴吗？
如果人们有那么一点点的智慧，一点点的同情，一点点的关怀大量的话，
世界不知道有多麽美丽啊。
@35,
Make the impossible possible . :')
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Life isn't smooth .
My hotmail kena block .
I couldn't login my msn with my email'add .
FKFKFKFKFKFKFKFKFKFKFKK ,
Lost all my contact (N) .
MY PHONE TOO .
I lost all my friend's contact .
Especially the close ones like ziwei -.-
Luckily my piggzxz has her number .
If not im so dead ~ .
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Being outcasted in school ain't a bad thing afterall .
At least i could concentrate more (Y) .
Afterall its still my results that counts .
Im not living for dem !
Im living for myself , my future , my parents .
I know i'm happier den dem in all wayzxz .
My circle is wider den you guys .
Yes , best thing was ,
In this 4years in chongboon ,
I joined ample & endless of major events ,
Unlike any one of you guys ,
Some of you guys might joined NONE :D
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Joining major events like OBS,Camps,Atc,Npap'2010,
All this events helped me alot in my Oral,Compo (Y) .
Most of the time the question would always cling on all my events that i'd gone through .
YES .
I know god're giving me obstacles and hurdles .
Once i passed through all this , I'll be the happiest girl/lady in the earth .
I know , When im sad/tired of everything ,
I hav my most guairen'person beside me .
And my most beloved parens beside me .
I know i won't fall back ,
Cos even i've fall back , Dey' would always be my cushion be there for me .
I had ample of friends that're beside me ,
Rooting for me & Encouraging me ,
While you guys ?
None . :D
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See , Though my life had been like a rollercoaster & bored ,
I know after this few months of endure ,
Im out of this . LIKE TOTALLY :D .
I'll have back my freedom , my peace .
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Lastday of school yesterday .
Awesomezxz (Y) .
Time flies , Its had been 3months .
WOW , In just less than 9months , I'll be sitting in the hall taking O's .
HEHE ^.^
I'm so looking forward to my first paper, 30'May (Y) .
Anyway , I had fun in training & camp ytd .
Though i din't really stay -.-
At least i accompanied dem till 10pm before heading home :P
Learnt rifle drills , Gosh .
Its been 2years since i last touch a rifle or train with it -.-
Ever since i'd step up , being a CL ,
All i'd been teaching was STATIC & MARCHING DRILLS .
Not including baton/rifles . :P
I know how to march with it kay !
Just that my drills suck :X .
Skill rusty alrdy :( ,
Sweatypalms made me even JIALAT -.-
I' had to control my rifles w/o transferring .
I need to throw up , Especially this part ,
Im super afraid that , it'll 'piiangplang' .
drop on the floor = DEADMEAT .
At night , Inspecting sec1s' bunk .
WAH , MY FINGER WAS SUPER DIRTY&BLACK&GROSS .
& BEST THING WAS ,
3rd floor girls, hallway ,
LIGHTS'SPOILT .
Its darkness through out ,
I need accompany dem -.-
Remember , Never go in odd'number ,
Always go in pairs .
Soyah , Im' the 3rd ,
I couldn't let dem walk in the middle .
Thus i walk in the middle ,
As middle ppl would always kena the thing first before side ppl kena .
YES . -.-
Im super scared , YET i couldn't show out my scared expression ,
I still need console dem that ,
There're NO GHOST in this WORLD .
-.-' , GOSH .
I'm supposedly to lead the sing-a-long ,
I HAVEN SING FINISH THE FIRST SONG , I'd been called back to np'room .
For drillcane's drills -.-
Im a reserve for contingent I/C .
HEY , A RESERVE -.-'
I'll 99.9999999999999999999999999% in GOH'COntingent -.-
I found no reasons for me to train drillcane like seriously .
But frankly speaking , i rather train drillcane :P .
Firstly , its new to me .
Secondly , My sweatypalms wont make ANY DIFFERENCE (Y)
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Homed ard 10pm(Y) .
Pig calll meeeeee . :D:D .
He off work , While im offf from NPCCC .
HEHEHEHEHE ,
Hi cheater bug <3 .
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Bye guys (Y) .
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I'M SO LOOKING FORWARD TO DANCE PRACT' Wih ZHIYINGG (Y) <3
