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Hey guys! Sorry for not living up to my promise. HAHA. I promised to blog up my Wuhan and Phuket trip soon but Its either I'm too lazy or busy. But i think lazy takes up 90% of it. Meh, Ever since I'd finished my 1 month notice in AA, I've been looking around vigorously. No more income coming in in the month of June feels excruciating.

Although I truly believes that "when a door is closed, god will open up a window for me", Its still hard not being able to accept that I'm currently jobless and unemployed. If it makes any sense, hmm. Maybe unemployed is not a good word, since I do freelance every now and then. I'm truly grateful for the opportunities that LDR have given me for the past few years. Its one of those few jobs that I'll never be able to let go completely. What can I say? Facilitating kids around is just my hobby. HAHAHAHA.

In the meantime, I'm still looking around for the semi-permanent ones. I've 2 jobs on hand right now, Sinda and GSA. Teaching Pre-Nursery on every Saturday was a hobby at first, and it became a chore along the way and now it became my passion. Firstly, its because we couldn't communicate well. Some of the kids in my class don't understand english well, and I can't speak Tamil at all. Its so hard to even communicate with their parents. OHGOD :-( I really want these kids to learn well and are prepared for their kindergartens education. I don't want them to suffer in K1 or K2 when the rest of the class is learning something harder and they are still at the foundation phase. Its gg to be so hard on them. Hence I'm trying so many ways to help them learn and it's the achievement that I got from them when they're able to recognize X,Y,Z and 8,9,10 now. Since one of the kid couldn't at the start of the semester.It makes me feel that the things that I do for them are all worth it. It makes me happy, for that 2hours. Thank you boys. Teacher Fiona truly appreciates. :-)

Giving supplementary classes for Inforcom Club in SCGS was not easy, at all. Teaching them the software was easy, because its all just word vomit, but making sure that they actually understand whats going on was oh so hard. Making sure that they don't play games in other tabs like what we normally do back in school was SO DAMN HARD!!! Now, I truly understand how my Primary and Secondary teacher feels. Whenever I've classes in computer Labs, I won't actually listen to what its going on, I'll actually open up games website in tabs. OMG GUYS, REMEMBER MINICLIPS.COM?! Old much? HAHAH. Thats what happening right now, I've at least 40girls in my class, and half of them are actually surfing the net and playing online games. OHMYGOD. Some of them even watches youtube, like hello?! Do I look like I came from cave, and you think I don't actually know what you doing? I went through the same phase as you when I was at your age, girl. I so can't believe it. One of the ridiculous things I saw was, primary 2 watching some movie parody trailer?!? shit. what has world has become. HAHAHA. Apart from stopping them at all these nonsense they gave, I have to actually help them in their project when they can't finish. OMG. Theres only one me, I have to help like 8groups?! K fine. I'm paid. oh well. HAHAHAHAH Its just so unbelievable. Thank god, its June holiday. YAY. Perks of working in a teaching industry? You get off when its school holidays. AWESOME OR WHAT? WOOHOO :)

It has been fun doing all these for once a week. HAHAHA. So far so good. I can't wait for school to start in Aug/Sep. WOO.

Till then, I'll post more. I try.

PS/: Whenever something has ended, something new will begin. You' will never be left with nothing.

Hey everybody! There's too much going on in my life right now, that blogging became the least priority. I know I promised to post up my Wuhan & Phuket post, but I think this current post are much more important than those. In just last week, I've experienced one of the worst scenario that someone can experienced in life. HAHAHA, Its retrenchment. I know we shouldn't name it as "Retrenchment" when the real deal was that our project is over, but then again, at the end of the day, we're still "pulled out from project" and in my terms, is "SACKED". Hence, Retrenched seems likea more appropriate word to describe this.

So, since then, alot had changed. The dynamics in the company changes as well. In the past, all of us had goals. We had the same objectives to fulfill, the same motive to work towards it. But, slowly, all these turned into dust. I know changes are inevitable. There's nothing we can stop changes. The only thing we can do right now, is sought out for new and better opportunities. I'm really glad that after speaking and discussing with mummy, I've finally realize my goal at the end of the day. But, its just me. What about the rest? At least I'm glad to hear that, there's a few staying. Although, typing all these down will make me look fake and all, since I actually hated, er, some of them. HAHAHAHA. But, I'm not that mean. Yes, Me hating them is 1 thing, but them getting retrenched is another. I might hate them and all, but not to the extent of hoping that their career in A&A is over. I kinda still hopes that they can find a new job in this short period of time, and maybe they will become matured overtime.

Let me explain myself.

I was just a fresh graduate from poly back in March'2015. My first job was to be a Pre-school Teacher. THAT WAS MY DREAM ALL ALONG OKAY. I know my calling was teaching. I kid you not, I've been doing so much teaching since Poly. The thing thats ironic was, I'm teaching values in life, and yet, I can't seem to apply my values in this job. In the past, I've always tell the children that I taught that,

"Perseverance is the key in life. To succeed, you must persevere. I know there's tons of obstacle out there, before reaching your goal, but you must always remember that, after all these obstacles, they're bound to teach you something along the way that will help you so much in succeeding your goal at the end of the day."

But, now, its so hard to apply this in me right now in this current job. No matter how much I persevere through the obstacles I met in this job, I can't see the goal clearly anymore. And slowly, I start to shut up. I've always been a loud person. I'm always the person that will announce to the world what I like or don't like. I'm really open to telling the world how I felt. But through this job, I closed up. I didn't even realized it, until my mummy thought that something's wrong with me. HAH.

Anyways, it was really sad that I lost myself in this job. So maybe, getting retrenched might be a good thing afterall. I'm determined to find back myself before my university starts. I'll find back the loud me. You guys can say all you want.

"Fiona, did you ate speaker growing up?"

"Fiona, Please, keep your mouth shut."

"Pui Pui Dua Dua Jia, Yo Ah Yo Ah, Long Tio Pia"

These were some of the comments I remember deeply in my heart, Its not easy erasing these comments off. This job is the one job that I received so much "compliments" in just er, less than a year.

Apart from all these, I have to thank the people in this job as well. They've taught me so much about life. They've taught me that, I've to come back stronger every single time they tried to put me down. The amount of times I breakdown before sleeping, The amount of times I rant to the people around me, The amount of times I feel like giving up, The amount of times I want to resign, I'm glad I'm still here, growing stronger every single time, every single day.

"The reason why they're putting you down every single time, is because that you're a obstacle to them. So, don't let them have their way. I know you can do it, you always do it." - Anonymous.

"Words are just words, They can't hurt you physically. If you can overcome the sharpness and cruelty of words, you can overcome anything." - Anonymous.

I know all this I've encountered in this job wasn't severe, or serious. But to me, at this point in life, it was. Documenting all this down, made me realized how much I've gone through in the past year. Looking at how much I've grown, I'm actually glad that I entered this life. They had given me life lessons that's priceless, and these will help me alot, in my future.

Till then, I wish my colleagues best.

Hello everyone! I'm currently blogging on my phone!

The paragraphings might look different, but i'll edit it later on the computer! 

As the title states, I'm so excited to tell all of you readers out there that, I'm going to try and apply for The Travel Intern!! WOOOOHOOO  *SCREEEAMSSS*

I applied it last year for fun and I wasn't shortlisted. But I'm not sad/disheartened or anything, because I know I can't make it for the period anyways. HAHA. This time round, I'll do my best to attract their attention and try my best to get shortlisted for the travel intern! So please, please, pleaseeeeeee stay tuned for my upcoming posts about the countries I travelled for the past 2years hehe.

Let me introduce myself. I'm Yilin, 22 this year. Usually, people call me by Fiona, or 10, or Ten. I'm really good with any names. It actually makes people to remember and recognize me even easier. After I graduated last year from Nanyang Polytechnic with a Diploma in Engineering Informatics, specializing in Integrated Logistics and Supply Chain Management, I moved on to quite a few more jobs before landing on my present job.

I am always interested in the Education sector. I love kids since the day I decided that I want to be a Child Psychologist, over a mediacorp show. I was so inspired to be one. After knowing that I couldn't be one without a cert, I applied for Pre-Nursery Teacher, a job next in line to child psychologist. Hence, I started working as a Pre-N Teacher for 2 of my form class, Daisy A and Daisy B. They were one of a hella' huge class. Although they are only 3years old, the way they talk, its like young adult.

- NO JOKE -

I met with so much obstacles after a term that I decided that maybe I was not cut out to be a teacher, full time. Therefore, i quitted. I still do part time tutoring jobs once in awhile. HAHAH

After sending multiple of applications, I landed in Supply Chain Auditor. I've been working for 10 months now. WOOHOO. LETS CELEBRATE.

So much anger, tears and joy for this job nonetheless.

I applied for Bachelor of Science in Computer Science and Game Design in Singapore of Institute of Technology last year. I was selected after the grueling interview, but i rejected. Because, I wanted to have a year of experience before embarking on another journey.

After exactly 1 year, I applied for the same course again. Tada, I got in! Way easier. The interview took me less than 10mins and the professors was so nice people. They remembered me from last year! They even asked why I rejected and all. THEY WERE SO CONCERNED.  IM SO TOUCHED AFTER THAT INTERVIEW. HAHHAHA.

And here I am, applying for The Travel Intern, because I want to explore the world again before my uni starts in August. I'm really excited for my Taiwan trip in July too!!

HELLO @THETRAVELINTERN, if you guys are reading this. Hello again!!:-). Thank you for taking your time reading this lengthy post and all. I know I might not be the right one as I might not have as much travel experience than the rest of the applicants that were applying, but I'm pretty sure that if I'm selected for it, I'll do my best and be one of the hella' best travel intern ever. HAAHAH. I really just want to experience another different life before my uni starts. Heheh. I"m just another dreamer and adventurer. CHOOSE ME PLEASE. YOU GUYS WONT REGRET. 

Okay. Thats enough of me promoting myself.

So, I'll post up my Wuhan and Phuket Trip soon! I PROMISE.

TIME TO LIVEN UP THIS DEAD SPACE FOR SO LONG. 

If only the sky in Singapore is that pretty. Taken during my San Francisco trip.

PS: I'm really close to my Mummy, and she read my blog all the time. So when she know that I'm revamping it, she's so happy. hehehe Here's a photo of us. LOVE YOU MAMI.

Thank you for supporting your crazy daughter throughout these 22 years despite that I'm sucha letdown all the time. You're my pillar. ALL THE TIME. oh and stop giving that face when I'm showing you some love please :-(

Till then, Ciao~

Hello everyone! Finally, I'm back on blogger once again. After probably a 2.5years of hiatus? :-) Its time for me to revamp my skin and to start a brand new blog!

Okay. Let me explain on why I've stopped blogging since then, before I start updating my life. In year 2014, I was in my final year of my poly life. Everything was happening so fast! Internship, FYP, and exams. All this happened so fast that I couldn't stop and breathe for awhile. I also lost my account for instance.

When I wanted to login to Blogger, they insist that I was entering the wrong gmail & password. I was so worked up that I actually emailed Google and asked for a solution. I didn't reply, I should've known. Therefore, I tried all ways to retrieve back my account. After multiple of times, ample of times, FINALLY, YES FINALLY, I found it!!! YAYYY :-))))

I even tried Dayre in the meantime. But I couldn't get used to the interface and all. So tada, I'm back. Better and way more time to blog and update on my lives. Thus, in future if I ever had dementia, I can actually read this blog and know what I've done or what I was doing when I was young. Okay, that's alot of "I was".

So what was I saying, OH. I was saying about my Internships and FYP. The final year of my poly phase was the best! I had the chance to meet so many people and I only have to study half a year. THATS LIKE THE HIGHLIGHT OF YEAR 3. ITS THE BOMB GUYS. I have to say, year 3 was fun for half a year and study for half a year. WOOHOOOOO!!

I also found one of the best gift in life. Hehehe. I also got a free entrance ticket to River Safari because of him. Wooo, Thank you babe. :-) It was so much fun in 2014. I had so much time to spend with him, comparing to now. :-( . & because of him, I' scored so much better for my exams. I actually scored A's and B's for my Logistics & Supply Chain Module. WOO :):):) Thank you lucky star.

I've also traveled to Wuhan, China with my family. We're on a hiking mission yo! In total, I've climbed 3 mountains in WuHan. It was supposed to be pretty intense as it was the autumn period, but everything gone so well. It was foggy, hence it made the process tiring, BUT bearable and pretty.

That was the route up to the one of the mountains. As you can see from the picture, it was foggy. As you walk further up, it will become foggier, The air was so different that I have to take a mouthful of air whenever I had to take a breathe. It was so foggy that when I talk, there's the fog coming out from your mouth. It was so interesting.

When we reached the mountain top, I was expecting rainbows and pretty clouds. End up....

Err?!? HELLO?! I spend half of my day climbing up the steep roads, and this was what I saw. It was totally different from what I expect. I can totally do a Expectations VS Reality there. :-((( But it was nice. The tour guide told us that, its not very easy to see the scenery here as the fog will always be around. You have to be really luckyyyyyyy to be able to catch a glimpse of the "cloud-sea", direct translation from 云海. You guys get it? HAHAH

I'll update more on another post! Hehehe, I also went Phuket before my graduation! WOOHOO. It was supposed to be a graduation trip, err end up, we went with "un-invited" guest. HAHAHA, But its good, I guess everyone was pretty worried as we're only 2 young girls. -.-

It was fun. Like real fun. It was our first oversea trip! TO-GE-THER. YAYYYYNESSS OVERLOAD. We were so excited, especially knowing that we've officially graduated from POLY! WOOO :-)

I'll also post our Phuket trip in another post!

Okayyy, Its getting pretty late now!! I'll post again. I promise.

Till then, Ciao :-)

GOODNIGHT WORLD. :P

P/S: Im trying to revamp my blog, and thus some of my icon don't work. I'll try to make it work asap. :-(

Hey readers! I think this is normal right. Everything changes. Nothing is constant. It was just a week, and so much has changed. I grew up. I walk out. Yeap. Rambling over twitter and fb wont help much . Hmmm, where should I start?

Those who know me, should know that I actually had a hard time walking out from that r/s. Oh wait, can i even call it as a r/s? When someone is in love, you don't really care about status and stuffs. Cos all you want is to be with that person. Right? It took me 2 years, to actually figure out where am I standing. 2 years might not be called as long for you guys, but for me? Its long enough. It actually took up 3/4 of my Poly life. YES. POLY LIFE.

Before I even entered poly, the friends around me at that point of time was telling me that, " Poly life is the life where you can enjoy and have fun. Have lotsa of fun. Date countless of guys. Nobody will blame you for that. Because after Poly, its either you enter Uni, or Society. In both worlds, you can't enjoy and have fun. You can't date as many guys as you want anymore. People judge. So, go on now. Enjoy." I didn't really care so much or should I say, I don't really bother what they say. I just reply for the sake of replying. Maybe I'll say, and act like I really want to have fun and date countless of guys. But, at the back of mind, there's always you appearing. And also, I don't want to lose you. So whenever there's you appearing, I immediately stopped whatever I'm doing.

I put you first in everything. I learnt how to bake, cook, do handicrafts. ALL THESE, is not what I WOULD WANT to do in the past. It wasn't me at all. The me, in the past, was just a normal girl that hates girly stuffs. All I want to do in the past is have fun. Having a date/boyf in the past, its always the guys that do things for me. I never do a single thing for them at all. Sometimes, I would even forget whats the occasion. But you, I would note down every single occasion or date we had. I even had a diary just for me to write out how the date went with you. I KNOW ITS STUPID GUYS. I KNOW, But its a way for me to let out. Because there's no one for me to tell. or talk to. OR , I don't trust the people around me that much for me to let out all these to them. IM SORRY FRIENDS.

I never had the courage to tell people around me whats going through my mind or who i went out with ytd, Because I don't feel the need. And also, I don't want to be judged. I know even the friends around me will judge me behind my back. I know. So? I can't do anything to prevent it right? :-) And at that point of time, I've no status. I can't introduce him to my friends proudly saying that, "oh, he's actually my date". I can't say that. Partly because I've Z-E-R-O courage when it comes to r/s . And I can't label myself as a "girl-being-chased" as well. Because its ON-OFF.The chase is not a continuous cycle. Its a on-off cycle.

I don't know how or why Im okay with it in the past. But nevermind. Its over. Now I know, and yes definitely I regretted waiting for 2years. But in this 2 years, I really learnt alot. Thank you. ;-) I'll be a better and nice person to the next person that'll appreciate me. Ofcause, all the memories we once had since 2012, it'll all be kept. :-) Because all the memories is worth it. and Its sweet. It brings a smile to my face. So i thank you for that.You made me have a higher expectation of a guy now. :-)

I'll be strong. I'll stand up soon. Because I'll be stronger now. Alone. A girl can be successful too. I don't need a man to be beside me to keep me going. Yes. I might feel lonely at times. But who don't? A girl have to love themselves first before loving others. Loving yourself doesn'\t mean buying expensive things, but my definition of loving yourself is doing something you like. Have some alone-me-time to spend with yourself. Go for a jog alone, Go for a swim alone. Or , be like me. When I want to have a alone-me-time, I would head down to town to shop awhile. Not to shop actually, I look for nice food. I walk and eat at the same time, and I'll head down to Borders(IN THE PAST), now I'll head down to Kinokuniya to search for novels. Sometime, I would even walk down the street alone w/o knowing where's my end point. Just to clear my head. Just a few suggestions. :-)

Its late now. I've to sleep. IPP tomorrow. Till then, See you guys! <33333 nbsp="" p="">
Before you close the browser, y'll might wanna take a look at me. HAHAHA Like how i look like in the past, when i was 16. HAHAHAA. Good night! :-)

P/S: It was the Railway station. I miss the time we used to talk and hangout all the time, ZIWEI . :-(

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