I must start loving lives & cherishing people around me.

5:33:00 PM YILIN (: 0 Comments

Hi blog.
I'll do a quick post before gg for ahgong's wake.
So ya, ahgong passed away last midnight.

Today morning, dad called me up just to tell me ahgong passed away ,
I thought he was joking. AND, I was freaking annoyed.
Suddenly, I received  mum's call...
"Ahgong passed away last midnight. I rushed down t. hospital..."
"I didnt want to wake you up..."
I didnt hear mum' tearing.
Instead, she's so angry.
Cos we visited him ytd TWICE.
MUM VISITED HIM TWICE.
Morning and Night.
Yet after mum left, in the midnight, we received bad news.
None of us expected it.
He was joking so happily w. me ytd .
Yes.
Nomatter how much I hated him or ignore him.
Afterall he's my grandpa.
MY only ahgong.
The one that watched me as i grow up.
The one that called me 傻姑.
Cos i was super dumb and gong in the past.
I'm the one that he doted the most among all the cousin,
BEFORE niuniu and laoshu was born...
Had a talk w. Mummy.
She cry infront of me...
And my tear just flow..
I really cannot see my mum cry.
When i see her cry, My body feel like crying as well.
Everybody is over at there,
Yet only me haven't go down yet.
Mixed emotions.
Afterall, i just couldn't let go.
I rather he sit at the same sofa, talking to me.
asking me to go eat.
asking me what show i wanna watch.
tell me don't play too rough w. the 2 kids.
I rather he do all that THAN he's gone now.
Puffy eyes.
Crying eyes.
Bye blog.
I NEED TO STOP CRYING.
HE MIGHT NOT WANT TO SEE ME CRY AS WELL.
CHEERUP YILIN!!!!!!! <3 p="">

Mood's back.

11:33:00 PM YILIN (: 0 Comments

I'm in the mood to do LDR again!
A blink of eye, it's been a year!
Since I Last started LDR. AHahah.
24/1/12 was the first day when I first started LDR.
And today is 23. So it's still counted as 1year RGHT? :/
I'm otw home right now! Lemme post pictures and carry on t. Blog when I reach home okay?! HAHHA

Emotionally Unstable.

5:43:00 PM YILIN (: 0 Comments

Semester is coming to an end.
Every end, there'll be a start of a beginning.
I was actually kinda looking forward to it.
I like changes.

All the work is pumped in.
DsaProj,Tests,Exams,Presentations.
All of this made me feel like Im suffocating.
Although I only left with 12 more days t. my 'unofficially holiday',
I don't feel the excitement yknow'!
I want to finish my dsaProject by last week.
I kept dragging and dragging and dragging.
Till now, I haven't even completed it.
Its not i dont want do okay, its i dont even fcking understand how it works.
the feeling sucks especially when the vs said there's no error,
yet ur program run w. error.
DAFUQ?!
Only if i could communicate with my program.
So i decided to stay back awhile for cher.
After much explanation.
I think i understand abit alr.
Like abit only ah, Cannot say don't understand the entire thing she said.
Next week , there'll be project assessment.
I just freaking hope that it won't cock up.
No error please. :D

Nextup, i'll be having my fNet test this thursday and itENG test next tuesday.
I'll be doing my cheatSheet later on for fNet.
BECAUSE IM SO BUSY TML :(
Lecture in the morning,Ldr in the afternoon,Childminding in the evening.
So, I want to try to finish my cheatSheet later.
If can, Maybe i'll head down t. CSL :)
Let me sidetrack abit.

Mum's cooking birdNest for me.
Its from xiaoJiuMa.
Its nice, although the test is weird.
I still prefer the bottle kind.HHAHAHA

K, Im back :)
So ya,
IM SO EXCITED FOR LDR TML.
I've an attachee!
Like finally.
I think he's an attachee to me.
Like after working for LDR a YEAR. I've finally got myself an attachee :P
Im always at the point where im jealous that they have an attachee,
while i dont :( .
HAHAHAA. SO HAPPY. YAY .
Happygirl94(Y).
Okay. TIME TO GO!
I've a cheatsheet to do :( .
Bye guys <3 nbsp="" p="">
Ohya, Look @ the pictures for our second performance.
I wasn't that slim now.
Im fat likea hippopotamus now. :(

I finally understand..

9:59:00 PM YILIN (: 0 Comments

After what i've gone through recently,
 finally realised and understand who's my true friends,
who's my friends,
and who's my hi-bye friends now.
Its not too late right?
Readers, and friends that're still currently following up t. my blog,
Dont be guilty or self-conscious that i'm talking about you :)

I never really open my heart to anyone ever since Z' left.
Although i go club, but i don't really club my hearts out .
I may seem that i'm enjoying, but actually im not.
I was super duper surprised and shocked that I' will stopped J' from giving me the drinks.
Although she's half drunk, at least she's much sober.
Sober to the extend that she know I couldn't tank anymore.
Im so lucky to have her as my friend, as my classmate.

Had been visiting clubs almost every week.
After a few times reaching home @ 5-6am,
I decided t. promise Mami that i'll reach home latest by 4am.
I tried to abide by the rules, abide by the promises I've made to her.
As you guys know, I don't break promises .
Especially to my dearest Mami.
I know she's worried about me getting drunk,
and drinking,
and whatever.
COS IM SICK.
I truly appreciate that.
I truly do.
She wake up in the middle of the night calling me,
Although i was super angry at her, i know that whatever she do, its for my own good.

Sometimes i wonder,
whether knowing that bunch, is a good thing.
They're good to me, thats for sure.
But i just don't feel comfortable w. them.
I don't feel the comfort when i'm w. I' and when i'm w. them.
I can honestly , truthfully, frankly say that, I'm more used to the presence of I' when it comes t. clubbing.
Because i know that she' won't purposely hurt me, or push me t. my extent.
Afterall, she's the first person w. C' tht i gone club with.
Maybe its time to stop clubbing.
Maybe stop for a period of time. :)

Mami asked me ytd night, Whats the main motive when i go first wanted to go club?
And i said, I wanted to go club because i want to see, i want to know what does club really look like.
Thats lastyear.
And she said again, Now you finally know how it look like, you even experienced it,You still wanna go?

I know the risk im taking.
I know how high the weightage of the risk is.
But isn't life all about risk?
I ask myself,
I became so self-conscious.
Whatever people talk to me in club, I'll only believe maybe 1/4 of the conversation?
I won't believe the entire convo.
Its because of what M' said few weeks ago.
They might put things/medicine inside your drinks, and you don't even know.
The next moment you woke up, you're somewhere else,Naked.
Kay. prolly I'm exaggerating.
But its somewhat true.

It makes me have a different look at Singapore.Entirely..
In my view when I haven't had a peek @ the nightlife in Singapore,
I thought possession of drugs, molesting in public, Doesn't exist.
Now its totally different.
Singapore might not be as dangerous as other country,
But its still dangerous afterall.
Never believe whatever people say to you in those places.Cos'
they're prolly lying, and they only wanted part of you.

Happy New Year ! :D

8:12:00 PM YILIN (: 0 Comments

Im back to this dead blog t. update again! YAY.
Its been a year. HAHA . JOKING.
So, this is my first post of the year,2013. Lets make a new year resolution shall we? :)
In the meantime, my printer is printing my proj thats due tomorrow! :( .
Its th maths proj,
For those who've been following my fb and twitter, (THANKYOU*bow) .
Its been a tiring semester for me. :( .
Projects , and test like freeflow. LOL.
I cant wait for this sem to end.
OH, DID I TELL YOU GUYS SOMETHING?
My sem'Exam is after the CNY week.
HOW MEAN MY SCHOOL IS RIGHT? :(
DAFUQ. *THROWBOOKS,*FLIPTABLE,CHAIRS.
Okay. Im over-reacting.
Currently im listening to Ed Sheeran! *.*
His voice is so , er , serenading? :)

So let me give you guys a quick update of my life nowadays.
I spent my bday w. myself,pilot, AND my girls . :)
So in the afternoon, Pilot treat me to lunch. YIPEE.
IceCREAM BUFFET? :) .
Thats our plan actually. SIGH :(
But we couldnt make it. So we decided to have lunch ard our house Area,
Sweet of him though. HAHA .
Met cherrypie' at night, And aftr tt, Meet up w. girlies.
BECAUSE, Its mich's bday on the second day. So we decided to celebrate mich's .
BUT , Mich decided t. celebrate mine.
So we're like under different concept. HAHA .
Ofcause the other girlies and guys celebrated for us.
I've a balloon as well. LOOK! :)
Ohya. Cherrypie decided to draw on my face.
Since its my bday, why not. HHAHAHA .
I've a theme to follow as well. :'(
We had to wear Red,Purple,Orange,Green,Yellow.
WEIRD COLOURS. :( .
For those who didn't follow, had to be punished . Seriously -.-
No joke. I Had to drink :(
So ya, dONT ever laugh at my photos. look look :)