I finally understand..

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After what i've gone through recently,
 finally realised and understand who's my true friends,
who's my friends,
and who's my hi-bye friends now.
Its not too late right?
Readers, and friends that're still currently following up t. my blog,
Dont be guilty or self-conscious that i'm talking about you :)

I never really open my heart to anyone ever since Z' left.
Although i go club, but i don't really club my hearts out .
I may seem that i'm enjoying, but actually im not.
I was super duper surprised and shocked that I' will stopped J' from giving me the drinks.
Although she's half drunk, at least she's much sober.
Sober to the extend that she know I couldn't tank anymore.
Im so lucky to have her as my friend, as my classmate.

Had been visiting clubs almost every week.
After a few times reaching home @ 5-6am,
I decided t. promise Mami that i'll reach home latest by 4am.
I tried to abide by the rules, abide by the promises I've made to her.
As you guys know, I don't break promises .
Especially to my dearest Mami.
I know she's worried about me getting drunk,
and drinking,
and whatever.
COS IM SICK.
I truly appreciate that.
I truly do.
She wake up in the middle of the night calling me,
Although i was super angry at her, i know that whatever she do, its for my own good.

Sometimes i wonder,
whether knowing that bunch, is a good thing.
They're good to me, thats for sure.
But i just don't feel comfortable w. them.
I don't feel the comfort when i'm w. I' and when i'm w. them.
I can honestly , truthfully, frankly say that, I'm more used to the presence of I' when it comes t. clubbing.
Because i know that she' won't purposely hurt me, or push me t. my extent.
Afterall, she's the first person w. C' tht i gone club with.
Maybe its time to stop clubbing.
Maybe stop for a period of time. :)

Mami asked me ytd night, Whats the main motive when i go first wanted to go club?
And i said, I wanted to go club because i want to see, i want to know what does club really look like.
Thats lastyear.
And she said again, Now you finally know how it look like, you even experienced it,You still wanna go?

I know the risk im taking.
I know how high the weightage of the risk is.
But isn't life all about risk?
I ask myself,
I became so self-conscious.
Whatever people talk to me in club, I'll only believe maybe 1/4 of the conversation?
I won't believe the entire convo.
Its because of what M' said few weeks ago.
They might put things/medicine inside your drinks, and you don't even know.
The next moment you woke up, you're somewhere else,Naked.
Kay. prolly I'm exaggerating.
But its somewhat true.

It makes me have a different look at Singapore.Entirely..
In my view when I haven't had a peek @ the nightlife in Singapore,
I thought possession of drugs, molesting in public, Doesn't exist.
Now its totally different.
Singapore might not be as dangerous as other country,
But its still dangerous afterall.
Never believe whatever people say to you in those places.Cos'
they're prolly lying, and they only wanted part of you.