Passion....

7:10:00 PM YILIN (: 0 Comments

I know i've blogged for today,
BUT.
I just wanna update my blog again,
For the second time in a day.
Was watching razorTV & youtube,
and i pop onto a show called , "Burn the Floor"
Its a ballroom show, its a dance tour,
And they chanced upon in Sg last year.
And it made me reminisce.
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To be very very very honest,
I've lost the passion in dancing anymore.
Especially after joining the cca in sch.
Im not saying my cca aint good, its my stuff.
I just don't feel the passion to dance anymore.
In the past, i dance because someone wants me to.
I know that, whenever i dance, someone is watching me,
supporting me,he may not show up,
but i know he's watching me somewhere around the performing place.
Now....
Who am i dancing to?
What am i dancing for?
I've lost the aim in dancing anymore.
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Whenever i go for cca training, I always wanted it to end ,
AS QUICKLY, AS SOON, AS POSSIBLE.
But that shouldn't be the case.
THAT ISN'T RIGHT.
Normally, i would not want the lesson to end so early...
But now, when the training ends, first one to zao is me.
Sometimes, i even skipped training.
Its no doubt i've gained weight,
no doubt that i'm not performing anymore.
I would cock up lots of bullshyt excuses to stop myself from going training.
Whats wrong with me?
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I want my passion back.
Without dancing, i feels like i couldn't express myself anymore.
Dancing is the only way and time that i feel freedom,
Dancing is the only place where nobody can judge me, nobody can judge my style.
Its the place where i would be under the spotlight,
I may danced badly, but i'd still feel super happy.
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Partly, i also want my weight back.
I don't want to be so fat anymore.
Its time to slim down.
Cca starting on 25Feb?
Dance school's training starting on 23Feb.
i'm not skipping both anymore.
No matter how anybody is gg to tempt me, IM SO GOING.
IM GOING TO PULL MYSELF BACK UP.
SO WHAT THE TRAINING IS TOUGH?
I'll be able to go through it.
NPCC TRAINING IS TOUGHER,ROUGHER.
And i've been it for 5years.
So why not dancing?
When dancing is one my favorite things to do, right?
Look at my faces, When i first started Latin,
The smiles and laughs,




After skipping tons of training,
I start to put on STUPID WEIGHT.
I gained weight like crazy.




Here comes my first and last performance of year2012.
The memories i had with this bunch was so much,
SO MUCH that i don't regret knowing them.
SO MUCH that i forced myself to training, to train with them,
NO MATTER HOW TIRED and LAZY i was.
They even say , "I cab down to your house and fetch you"
They can say ridiculous things just to force me for training.
Despite all the sweats, The laughter was priceless. :)

















Last but not least,
I'm not gonna quit.
At least, I want to shed off my weight and fats.
AND MY FLABBY ARMS.
No matter how much i don't like dancing salsa, its still part of latin,
Its either i danced it well, or i don't even dance at all.
To dance, I've the confidence.
Having back my weight, I'm MUCH MORE HAPPIER. :D
<3 p="">Till then,
TOODLES :)

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3:41:00 PM YILIN (: 0 Comments

Hi blog!
Firstly, Let me wish all of you guys,
A HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR,
\AND NEVERTHELESS,
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! :D
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Hope you guys had fun celebrating both of the occasion !
Cny was a disaster for me and my family.
As you guys know about my grandpa,
Cny wasn't a exciting and happy time for us to celebrate anymore.
ESPECIALLY when cny is like 1week after the funeral......
None of us had the spirit .
CNy is just like a normal day of us.
We couldn't go to temples.
We couldn't pray at home.
As in we could, but not in roasted ducks and chicken,
Its all VEGETARIAN.
We couldn't have reunion dinner as well.
Things changed terribly.
Every cny, the family is super noisy,
sounds of kids crying,
sounds of us playing ,
sounds of th majong's tiles,
sounds of us saying "HUAT AH".
sounds of the television,
and sounds of my ahma scolding. HAHAHA .
But this year,
none of this sound was heard...
all we do and all we ever cared was,
CANDY CRUSH.
"Whats ur level of ur candy crush?"
"Cannot lvl up hor, SO HARD RIGHT . ~!@#$%^&*("

Cannot blame us,
We're youngsters, teenagers.
And all us have our cellphones/laptops/tablets with us.
especially now, when we've nothing in common.
to kill time,( OHBECAUSE, We couldn't go anywhere other than ahmaHouse )
Its kinda our tradition in our family.
The first day and third day is always the *family get-together* day .
So none of us is missing that,
GLAD GUCCI CAME ALONG,
I had someone to play with. LOL
Just so you know, Gucci is a Pomeranian dog. SHE'S SO CUTE. AND FLUFFY.
She's clearly obese, but cousin just say that she has LOTS OF FUR. HAHAHAH

LOOK, Its true she's furry, but she's clearly obese ! :/
HAHAHAHAH . OkaY, MOVING ON!
Although all of us using our tablet, or doing our own things,
We try to give others our attention.
But sometime it just failed.
FAILED BADLY.
AAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA ,
On reunion dinner,
Normally we'll ply majong before having steamboat,
but since we aint having steamboat,,,,
we aint having majong as well,
Thats basically how i spent my reunion dinner.
Everybody having their dinner OWN TIME OWN TARGET.
Aftermath? Watching tv tgt.
And the show is GOD DAM BORING.
Its all movies that're like lullaby.
It makes all of us to fall asleep.
OFCAUSE, Thats not th only thing we do,
The oldies in our family is into SLOTOMANIA .
So everybody is playing slotomania.
Literally, count ahma out tho. HAHA
OOTD FOR REUNION DINNER? :)
NO, CHECK MY INSTA! :P
I've th food here tho.
HAHAHAH


Its officially the first day of LUNAR CNY.
Wore new clothes,
Cabbed to ahma's SUPER EARLY.
WE weren't supposed to bai nian,
so nobody rlly came to ahma house to do visiting.
So in the very early morning,
Xiao gugu decided to bring ahma t. temple........
We shouldn't go,
but who cares. hmm,
Going temple w. ahma is a SUPER BAD CHOICE okay.
Its tragic.
My ahma is kinda of a petite kind of body shape.
AND SHE'S VERY SHORT.
So, its kinda hard for me to follow her around in temple,
When i had my joss sticks w. me ,
So when i had to follow her,
she just kept shouting my name, and ask me follow her,
AND EVERYBODY IS LOOKINGAT ME,
Oh , cause she squeeze through the crowd to get to the place she want,
without saying sorry or excuse me,
So the poor me had to squeeze w. her,
Im not as petite as her,
sO ITS KINDA HARD.
Understand?
Especially when i'm fat, and not so tall, BUT COUNTED as tall,
wITH MY FREAKING BIG BAG.
I had to squeezeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Its not easy people, not easy. :(
Its exceptionally irritating and annoying when people start to *ze* you.
Try making that sound now, ~!@#$%^&*i()
*ZE ZE ZE ZE*
Oh, We had pizza hut delivery and KFC................
LOOK:)

We couldn't finished it...
AND AHMA THROW AWAY OUR PEPSI/COKE .
WE'RE JUST SO DEPRESSED .
SIGH, ~!@#$%^&*()
Thats basically how i ended my first day,
For the rest of the day?
We're doing the same thing like we did on reunion dinner night.
BORING? :) UDS.
OOTD FOR FIRST DAY IS HERE!!!! TADAAA ~


SECOND DAY.............................
Actually i didn't do anything much,
It just feels like a normal day.
Cousin didn't came.
So all i did was to talk and play w. little cousin,
Thats when i say, lets go out and play,
I only bring them to void-deck....
AND FITNESS CORNER,
They're mad happy alr.
SEE, KIDS.
How naive can they be? :)
OOTD !!!


3rd day of CNY was better....
We had DIMSUM!
At swatow's restaurant.
Its at tpy,
It was actually YUMCHA, And it became Fortunate Restaurant, Now its Swatow,
Its a tradition for the family to eat dimsum ,
EVERY YEAR WITHOUT FAIL.
MY FAMILY ALOT TRADITIONS HOR, OMG. HAHAHA
See, TingtingJiejie and Me HAD TO QUEUE,
We queued for an hour plus going 2hrs BEFORE we got a place inside the restaurant :)
OOTD for day3.
IM SO FAT:(
yeah. THATS BASICALLY HOW I SPENT MY CNY2013:)
TIME FOR VALENTINE'S POST? :)

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I don't even know its Valentine's.....
Untill Mh' texted me for dinner,
And i saw twitter,
They started wishing their the other half, Happy Valentines :(
And i realissed its Valentines the next day.
I thought Valentine's 2013 will be a LONELY VALENTINE...................
So glad someone asked me out, yay . *throw poms poms 
Our meeting time is 5pm, Since he had to book in by 7pm @ Jurong,
And i left house at 455pm. :")
SO LUCKY, He also just wake up,
SO, We delayed the time back to 530pm,
I still reach JP before hiM.
Its not my first time going JP, But its my first time shopping inside JP -.-
Only just, i realised JP IS SO DAM BIG LA.,
That time, i was just following Charmaine's around JP,
NOW IM WALKING ALONE :(
I had to find the food place.
Walk here and there,
When i found it, he've reached.
SO YA, We decided to have DINNER at a shop called LALA :)


We had MEESUA. YEAPS:)
Ofcause, only my satisfied look of having my food,
HIM? * CANNOT, I CANNOT TAKE PICTURE. *
* YOU WAIT, Wait i wear home clothes then take picture okay *
* You wait, next time i bring my DSLR den take *

I've been waiting -.-'
Ofcause, he treated me. OMG. <3 p="">
Thanks for th dinner :P
Tho u won't be reading this. HAAHAHAHAH
I'll still write it here,
HAPPY BOOKING IN !
Treasure my origami letter and box.
AND EAT MY HUGS AND KISSES :'')
Happy Valentine's 2013, <3 p="">

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I had an awesome flashback,
I've started my 2013 with 2 big events that made me so happy and excited,
Nevertheless, There'll be more to come,
I'll try to post as much as i can okay. :)
Till then,

Loves,
Yours truly <3 p="">








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This is life babey.

9:00:00 AM YILIN (: 0 Comments

OMFG. ITS A DRAFT.
Time to post it babeh :) .
Its one of the saturday's post. HAHAH .
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ALRIGHT. HI PEOPLE.
I'm back again :)
Went for ldr trail on last saturday.
AGAIN.
But this time, its Marina Bay Trail.
I didn't went before, so its a goood first try.
I like it.
Cos there's free food.
ITS BUFFET MY DEAR. NOT OUR USUAL FOOD :')
And, we get to go on skyPARK!!
COOL OR WHAT. HAHAHAH .
I like it alot okay. :P

Ohyes. I met a new friend as well.
'Jeremy' .
A superb naise guy, that accompanied me t. wait for Sya&co :)
He even offered to walk me t. marinaSquare t. buy ticket first.
HAHAHA . WHY SO NICE? LOL.
K.
Meetup w. sya&xt WAS AWESOME AS USUAL.
Its been 1567337393days since we last met.
ESPECIALLY XT QUITTED SCH.
WE BECAME DISTANT :(
Went for Hansel&Gretel!!!
YAY . A SUPER NICE SHOW ALSO OKAY.
Sent thrills .
GOGOGO. GUYS GO WATCH IT.
NO REGRET ^^
After that, we had Coldstone!!
Walk t, dhoby t. find Yx & co :)
MY ANIMAL FRIENDS.
Its been 2years? Ever since N's lvl.
COOL . Known for so long. yet we never matured ._.
KCAN, HAHAHAH
Went for a movie as well,
The Impossible.
Its a tsunami show,
Sad...... but it gives us motivation.
It shows us that, with motivation, nothing can tear us aprt.
With believe, when we believe in ourself, when we have trust in ourself,
Everything will be smooth-sailing :).
I've a quote for today.
I saw from FB. LIKE DUH:)
"Its easier to join the crowd,but it takes whole lot of courage to be an individual"
So true.
I' wan to post pictures :(




















So thats the pictures, Maybe half of it.
That i took on saturday!
Lets see,
On friday maybe? :)
I'd performance at night, for cultureNight.
So , Helped feli & co.
I had fun.
MAYBE. HAHAHA
I saw sean & derek as well!!
Okay. I couldn't find seanPicture.
So prolly when i found, i'll post it here!!
But in the meantime.
Lets see the photos i took on friday, Shall we? :)

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