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HAPPY 2014 GUYS.As usual, I've been neglecting this space for long enough.
Its time for me to come back.
Am' currently blogging on my school's fypj com. HEHEHEHEHE
AS YOU GUYS KNOW,
I'VE OFFICIALLY STEPPED UP AS AN OFFICIAL YEAR 3 STUDENT.
And also, currently doing my FYPJ NOW. :-)
Its already week8. HEHEHE,.
SO FAST. IM GOING TO FINISH MY FYPJ SOON. WOOHOOOO ,.
Okay. Yes . HEHE .
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Time has been flying pass so quickly.
Its End of April, And Starting of May in just a few days time.
For the past 4months, alot of things had happened, and it somehow changed my life.
Or should i say, it has totally change the outlook of life for me.
I've lost old friend(s), gained new friend(s) .
Not something im proud of, But thats life is all about right?
Lets start from school.
I've gained new fypj friends. (screaams)
yay. They make my fypj life better . HAHAHAHAH .
Despite of the time that i've to spend after school dancing,
For the past 4months,
My life is all about,
FYPJ, DANCE, FYPJ, DANCE.
Oh not forgetting eat and sleep and shit too. HAHAHAHA .
Joining dance because i want to learn something new,
Something i never thought i would ever learn in my life.
But now, its more.
Its not joining dance anymore, its not that simple anymore.
Its more of doing something bigger.
Its more of holding the entire club together now and bringing it to a greater heights.
I never wanted to hold such a big and important position.
All i ever wanted was,
Join Poly, Join a CCA, Know more friends, End of year3, Say good bye.
thats what i wanted!
But when the bond i've created with them has been so strong,
I won't want to turn my back and say goodbye without helping them anymore.
It started of as a help.
And when it became more and more,
It became a burden in my life,
It became something i feel responsible for.
It became something that i won't want to give up so easily.
Thats why i would sacrifice my time for it.
Because i think its worth it.
But now, i dont think so anymore.
Nobody appreciates whatever i do, whatever we do.
All people can say was,
"Disappointed in you"
HELLO , HEY , I DONT NEED TO STAY HERE AND TAKE ALL THE SUFFERINGS.
AND WHEN I MEAN SUFFERINGS, IT MEANS ALL THE SCOLDINGS AND REPRIMANDINGS OKAY.
I've decided to keep my mouth shut because i feel that i deserve it.
BUT WHEN IT BECAME OVERBOARD,
Y'LL WILL DEFINITELY SEE THE REAL ME.
I FUCKING SWEAR.
I'm not that fucking bimbo in the dance cca anymore.
NONE OF YOU KNOWS THE REAL ME AT ALL.
DONT GO OVERBOARD.
MY MOUTH CANNOT KEEP SHUT FROM NOW ON.
I DONT DESERVE ALL THESE SCOLDINGS.
WTF?
We're not your punching bag for godsake.
We're not experienced in all this. NONE.
I repeat, NONE of the seniors taught us all this.
We learnt it from the start.
And that brings me to my next point,
Why am i so pissed off recently?
its not because of i dont wan them to take over or whatever.
Its because i want them to learn.
I dont want them to learn the hard way like how we learnt for the past 1year.
I dont want you guys to SPOONFEED them because i dont wan them to suffer when they take over.
I rather they suffer now and learn the way in doing it, and give their best in doing this thing next year.
Its my way of teaching them at the same time bringing this club to a greater heights.
You might think im wrong or whatever,
But i think that this is the better way.
Nobody really understands me,
i DONT blame. Because i dont want anybody to understands me in poly.
I dont even want to open up to people that i met in my poly.
BECAUSE I WANT TO PREVENT ALL THIS.
Time to do my video now. Bye guys.
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